My struggles with gambling addiction. (page 2)

What we can influence and where we can help, let us focus there. 

Have a nice day.😊☘️

I am back... and I did it!

After I wrote this post - I struggled for another 5 months. In november, I found the most easy way ever to uninstall Gamban on my phone, and after that it escalated. I could play anywhere, anytime.

But... for some reason I had to deal with my addiction without being dependable of a tool that would block me. It was all up by myself now. So on December the 5th, I made my last deposit.

So what changed? I'll try to explain.

1. I was totally exposed, and I could see the spiraling downpath to me being broke. I had to stop.
2. The mindset. I felt that I always lost. I started to feel how rigged everything was. It was a growing distaste of the industry. I started to hate casinos even more.
3. Keep in mind - every spin on a slot is just a low chance to win anything. The graphics are just there to keep the impression something is happening, but the moment you click to spin, your win have already been calculated - and it's obvious on some casinos where you can actually see your deposit increase before the animations have finished. Like if you win freespins - those 10 or 20 freespins doesn't matter. The total sum have already been determined by the system before the first freespin have happened. <-- This is one of the things that I disliked about it which helped me to distance myself.
4. Again, the mindset. It's a greedy, horrible industry that will make everything in their power to take your money.
5. Again, the mindset. If you spend $1000 every month on casinos. Try think differently. If you do NOT gamble, you will HAVE those $1000 that month, and next month too.

I am aware it's easy to fall back. I have falled back 1000 times. But I KNOW I can do it, and you can too. Never lose faith of your own ability to break free. And the positive thing is - the first weeks are the hardest - then it's getting easier because your body is pushing the urge away.

I have now been free almost three months - and I am iron willed about it.

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I am so happy for you. Thank you for coming back to us with this post of positivity.

I wish you to stay strong and feel better and better about yourself.😉

This is my first reply on the forum, but I couldn't get past your story.

I hope you make it through, strength and patience in such a difficult journey 🙏🏻.

Moral hug

Don’t try to focus on why you relapsed again.

A relapse is part of the journey to a gambling free life.

Just concentrate on keeping space between you and gambling.

With hard work and determination it is possible to overcome the curse